Time is the sea – tumbling blue and gray ahead of me –
I dangle a tentative toe in the froth of its edge –
the water appears to go on forever, but of course,
I know that it does not.
It comes to an end.
Do we get to choose the sort of end we want?
a quiet and wet tumbling over the edge of the world
into cloaking and numbing darkness?
(Oh yeah – that’s the one I want – as long as it is quick!)
or carried by a great, unforgiving tsunami,
full ofthe varied shrapnel of our lifetimes,
full of bruises and blood, kisses and hugs, love and loss –
carried and slammed against the detritus
of some desolate unfamiliar shore?
I am no longer standing at the sandy beach of the beginning.
I have survived the swells and storms, the dead calms
and the occasional sucking vortex of shock.
Am I within seeing distance of the place where there be dragons?
It is God’s little joke that I am almost 62 years old,
and while there will none of those so-called golden years,
there will undoubtedly be plenty of more years (fool’s gold maybe?),
working, saving, suffering, aching, losing loves and warmth
and capacities and skills and respect.
Will my modest little craft simply glide in innumerable little figure eights
at the edge because my tough pioneer genetic history has me trapped here until I am a doddering 95 or so?
Do we grow too old to dream?I am still full of dreams and many times
feel quite silly for it.Do I have a right to want it all?
It is God’s big joke on all us formerly arrogant and confident baby boomers
that Wall Street has driven silver spikes through our hearts
and scampered away with our money, snorting with giggles and guffaws.
Our kids are fighting wars we don’t believe in.
Our leaders are posturing buffoons
who wouldn’t know a middle-class American
if we were all clearly labeled as such.
So are we having a nice day?
Have we stopped worrying so we could be happy?
Are we patriotic enough?
Will we ruin this pretty planet?
Will the icebergs melt?
Are the people in PEOPLE really that important?
What is a celebrity anyway?
Why are we making them rich?
Don’t you wish we had saved all those old Mother Earth magazines
so we could hie ourselves up into the pristine mountains somewhere
and live simply and safely?
Me too.
I am writing a term research paper on gastric bypass and the whole "obese epidemic" brouhaha. This world is so tuned into the image our eyes behold.Believe me, the old saw "beauty is only skin-deep" is proven every week when People magazine hits the newsstands. I cannot believe the triviality that most folks have wrapped their heads around. My daughter has almost died from a botched gastric bypass and 2 subsequent surgeries.All is madness and the asylum is amok.